Deep down even when I may act like I don’t give a crap, I guess I do really miss you. More than I would have expected.. I wish things could’ve turned out way differently but I guess this is this and I just gotta learn to cope with it.
(Source: teresavuvuvu)
That what you do or how you feel doesn’t affect me anymore. I’m happy I finally let go of those feelings I once had that burdened and hurt me so much. I’m glad I could forget about our past and already moved on. It’s great to know when I see you with another person or when you try to make me jealous, it doesn’t hurt anymore. I have my own life to live and doing me. Good to know that you’re living you’re own life too, I never hated you nor would I be mad, I’m very appreciative of everything that did happen, but that’s all over and it’s now only just a memory. Who knows, whether we’re meant to be in each others lives or not, but it’s obviously going to take some time and start completely over. Nothing more than just being friends. You can’t really expect much, actually. Whatever happen, happens. Let’s just go with the flow~
(Source: teresavuvuvu)
(Source: teresavuvuvu)
I’d like it if a special guy comes into my life and prove to me that not all guys are the same. Because so far, I’ve only been getting more and more disappointed.
eff all of this. my feelings, my negativity, i hate it all. i wish i could control how i feel. i stress myself out thinking about stupid stuff constantly, stupid stuff like you. man i wish i could say i regretted you being in my life but i know i don’t. i know that i still have so much feelings for you but too late, i can’t do shit about it. yeah, i only have myself to blame at the end because i’m the one to push you away.. but i have my own reasons to do so. it kills me to leave what i suppose was my “happiness” but i guess some things were just not meant to be. You’ll be great with her. i’m happy for you. I’m glad you’re happy. i hope you’ll stay that way. i stay up late at night thinking you’d call or text me, but that’s so hopeless. i don’t know why i still do. i wish it didn’t affect me as much. i don’t know how i could feel this way after such a short amount of time. it hurts that i can’t talk to you anymore, i can’t do anything. And to see you with her, it breaks me even more. i know i keep my feelings away from you a lot before but you didn’t seem to care so why would i waste my time. i doubt everything we had now. i dont know whether all of that and all you said were actually true or not anymore. i know what i’m doing is best for the both of us.. i hope you’re living greatly and perfectly fine. I know you’re fine without me. There’s just so much i want to say and feelings left, but i guess i just need to wait for time to let all that fade away.
(Source: teresavuvuvu)
Lowkey can’t believe you put your arms around me & said “Let’s go to sleep together” while laying with me. It was cute though.
Sucks how sometimes that one person that can lift you up from your sadness and the closest person you have, have other who are closer to them than you.. Like they mean the world to you, but you’re just another one of the close people to them.
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After I gave the letter to my bestest guy friend/daddy earlier, man.. i started bawling my eyes out. IN mass. I remember what I put & how I’ve really opened up & felt so vulnerable. I poured my heart out to him and said exactly what I’ve been bottling up inside for a while now. How I felt, my cover ups, etc. I know this is one step closer to me recovering myself & starting to regain my happiness.
(Source: teresavuvuvu)
(Source: teresavuvuvu)
